What about me?

I don't know too much, but I know my parents have always steered me in the right direction.
My mother told me, "Time draws a rosy curtain." We forget what life is about if not reminded. After a while of ignoring the good things it is very difficult to find enjoyment in the blessings that are all around us. I tend to be egotistic, and it is a dangerous flaw. When I drink alcohol too often it ruins my perspective. It makes me depressed. I makes me stupid. It ruins my life and everybody around me gets a scratch and dent version of me. I can't blame alcohol. I blame myself for not having the fortitude to just stay away from it. My dilemma is not unlike yours, if you have a drinking problem. Alcohol does not make anything go away, it just prolongs the inevitable suffering one must go through to learn and grow. I don't even drink daily. But when I do it for three or four days in the evenings, it screws up my whole vibe. What's the point? The point is that because of my own weakness I make life unbearable for myself sometimes. Moving away is not the answer. Any decent woman would not tolerate my uncertainty. I don't need a woman. I need to be a good father and son and friend. Those things alone are hard to do well, but the significance of them is huge.

When a person starts believing his own lies it's a good time to do an overhaul. It is that time for me. I have been blessed with two wonderful sons and good parents. Time to repent, again. That I do know.